America-financial collapse and War-I had enough
Today on September 25-2008, i had enough of negative talk, something i have never been a part of my entire life as i have been blessed with genetics, luck, whatever that since high school one of my descriptive nicknames was Mr. positive. I was also blessed with good deal of physical strength, so much so several years after i find myself in my personal Disney land- marine corps bootcamp and the infantry- an environment not for the faint of heart and will place a bar very high for you- i have enjoyed jumping over it with a smile:)
I graduated the marine corps with the understanding of discipline, coupled with being introduced with a beautiful form of religion-Christianity- i embarked upon life with a very bright and illuminated trail. there was never darkness- not in over 2000 solo hiking trips in the mountains day or night- rain or blizzard - to the darkest corners of cities and mans behavior in order to explore and investigate our fellowman- there is never darkness when one walks with the Christ in his heart.
for me-the story of the Christ is completely opposite to what many see as reality on the ground. life can be very hard. most of the earths inhabitants don't have electricity to filter and pump water- to keep warm in winter and cool in summer and so on. many die prematurely of diseases from the most simplest ailments in life.Living in such a life gives many an excuse to infringe on others for their own sustenance and life. In the understanding of the Christ, here is an example of the life one should live in the eyes of god, this is the highest form of life- to attain such in one life's time is a struggle indeed as children of god are bound on earth in animal bodies subject to hormones, frailty of daily living with abuse and conflicts, it can be very hard at times for some of us. Yet we know even in our own lives we know people like the Christ to some degree. a warm spirit to console with, a friend when you need it, someone who is there for you when most others fail us.
They say the art of positivity adds to the health of a human being. what doctor would even debate the truth of placebo pills. the power of the mind is infinite, and maybe some day all man will perfect the ways to teach our children to be strong as steel in adversity, and kind as the Christ to one another in any circumstance. maybe that day will come universally as we see some amongst our lives that come close to being that soft gentile spirit to calm the savage beast at times. That is the Christ to me, there is much more i see in the life he lived- yet at this moment, the story of his life for the betterment of mankind even up to the day he is crucified and yet prays for his assailants as the Christ surely knows man knows not what he does. such an example of faith-the highest form i have ever witnessed by description. some say made up, maybe most of the things we hear on anything in life are twisted in some manner. for me and many Christians i believe, is faith, for a human being to place his soul in absolute faith for the life lived by a human being is a great leap of faith and action. man has the free will to love and live the deeds of anyone they wish- mighty Caesar of Rome- Ganges khan of Mongolia-whomever- or even positive speakers like tony robbins and others have their fan clubs. To place our soul in trust with an entity such as the christ- the type of behavior any parent wishes upon their offspring. the opposite of dog eat dog and mans thirst for barbarism as he struggles for life on a planet with enemies both human and not-from animals to simple bacteria and viruses- life is a struggle. The Christ is a spirit with unlimited compassion and strength to endure thru prejudice-hatred-stupidity-why- for he knew the way-the truth-and the life. here is a story of a human being communicated by god as his precious messenger.
In a world where many go to fortune tellers-palm readers-spirit talkers-etc etc, everyone is aware this life is some kind of test of growth amongst many other things as we live a great gift if healthy and stable to enjoy it, as much as we declare boldly we know what is going on- we know very little- and an answer can come from anywhere- from the homeless person on the street- to some spiritual talker that maybe tunes in at times with the spirit world all man will someday revisit after death. The Christ was given great strength-and thru him we too can find great strength merely by faith.I am not sure if i explained this properly, as i have never been a writer, more a science person my entire life, but i want to describe what was my primary drive in the core of my soul as i embarked upon the earth in my life.
I believe this core of understanding was in place since the age of 17 for me, and the decades came on as i struggled,lived and loved as many do in our lives. at the pinnacle of the age of 42,last year, i believe i have succeeded with an experiment and ideology never before conceived of in science. an experiment which maybe in time will prove to be the end of the energy crises with no greenhouse gases. sounds wonderful doesn't it, maybe it will turn out like that during my lifetime, but now is more than one year later from such a discovery, what has occurred in the meantime?
First, it is important to understand my drive during this past decade as a disciple of god, a follower of Christ, and a man of discipline with a full devotion and admiration for all the peoples of the earth that have come together in this fantastic country- America, and made such a wonderful environment for all of us to enjoy and prosper like no other generation EVER IN HUMAN HISTORY- Thank you america and the peoples within. I believe i have been on some kind of mission since the age of 17 with an intrinsic drive to find a scientific miracle for mankind to alleviate the ailments of society. life is good-but very hard for many- it should be apparent for those with eyes to see the sick and poor- and ears to hear many complain from hunger and abuse- and with our talents and compassion for one another if we posses the energy- let us come to one another s aid as we are all our brothers keeper. For me, as with so many- life has its challenges- maybe it was meant to be,but i like many became divorced with the fact of my son separated by 3000 miles since he was close to two years old, i truly don't wish this on anyone- even my enemies if i had any. so i returned to my present kingdom to regroup and continue- the sanctuary of my parents home:) a place where love from my own father and mother provided a base for my energies- i survived this entire time as a self employed master electrician-almost every penny i ever made wne to experiments- sure there were some fun times- however, without question, with a small child in mind to make a life stronger for me and my own, i struggled to find answers in order to be rewarded for deeds, and as a duty to use god given talents during a once in a lifetime event-LIFE ITSELF in present form of character and personality. i don't want to talk about reincarnation-maybe or maybe not- the world is not ready to officially make up its mind- we have way too many other hurdles to accomplish. it has been a decade since i had health insurance as i find it unaffordable as i needed my resources for experiments. this past decade i have surely lived close to a poverty level as i continued to find answers to make a better world, i was trying.
So last year came and i actually achieved to hand build something i have been trying to communicate with scientists for several years- i am not a phd person who speaks the language of academics- nor do i write nor care to in a fashion like a thesis paper. In a manner which on surface might seem completely arrogant i came upon the internet like an excited child with such a wonderful gift to relay- what i found quickly and harshly dashed my feelings of warmth and caring for one another.
I was lucky to be blessed in a large ape body, over 6 feet and 220 pounds most of my life- i have found it akin to being an military tank in which no one likes to make trouble with and i had the ability to walk anywhere i wanted to, i guess man respects man when they are bigger. i have never been a bully or abusive person, i never hit anyone my whole life, i am always the first to give the smile, i am always the one who sees the positive in any situation. when i came upon the internet, i found that many people live behind screen names and carry out abusive and harsh verbal attacks against one another. i was not used to this at all. i tried to make friends in many forums, but as soon as one would say something out of line- i deleted everyone and started over again- forum after forum for over a year i try to make conversation and try to engage with persons to come together and let us force a university to replicate my experiment to verify such a finding. ITS THE ENERGY CRISIS- our soldiers fight for it- our planet dues by it- and our global economy is about to collapse from it- and i live with the full conviction in my heart that my experiment will end this crisis- i should be received with open arms. i did not find this- i find that most people do not believe anyone- faith between one another is so degraded- its hard for anything good to surface amongst so much deceit.
Time will tell whether my science deeds are true or not, it cant stay forever a completely new way to attack the energy crisis can be left alone, but it was surely my duty to try and uncover it. magazine journals rejected me because i didn't take the time to type and write it exactly the way they like it at elesvour or nature magazine- physics professor don't even reply to emails as they think i am just the crazy scientists, i don't get it. even my own friends at home don't ask to help, even though they have asked me my whole life to fix this-and fix that as i was also blessed with that ability, and then my time came where i needed help, i asked for many to help spread the word- on the net, with friends, with concerned citizens0- i gues people dont like the way i talk,type,write,look,whatever, i am a one man show and i am trying.
several months into my solo efforts to stimulate others to replicate my experiment, as i endured abusive comments from many, the world of god told me to speak up, i thought maybe my faith will be tested along with many others. so i began to write about my life as a follower of chrism with a full belief that if my experiment yields the truth to clean energy for our civilization, i am a messenger with words of unity and peace for the 21st century, this is a long story, one in which i have documented on the net for 10 years now. however, i always kept it to myself- one may profess being a n atheists and that is completely fine for most people, however, just tell them you are a messenger of god and watch the anger-the bewilderment - its fascinating, it makes me feel really sad for the Christ and what he must endured trying to tell people love one another as they beat and killed him.However, i was fully aware this was very sensitive subject, but i believed I earned it, i believe i was visited in spirit with authorization to speak up as a messenger. maybe just to throw it mans face as they throw whatever they want in my face as i offer the solution to the energy crisis and met with such harshness, i believe god gave me the authority to do so. while man was living his life and knocking on wood for their desires, i was asking for the sickness of any child,m all children during this past decade as my efforts intensified to find a miracle for all of us. my prayers were to god that you made me too strong physically in a world where many are sick, please god bless me with strength to find answers for mankind, give me the sickness of any child- all children, i don't know how this cosmic balance completely works, but offer my life for others to live, all i ask ids the grace to endure and find an answer in your holy name. this is what i didi for the past decade as i lived in my sanctuary with my parents at a poverty level trying to do something for all us.
so my writings and rhetoric became more harsh and abusive as i realized no one was helping, how come no one helps i wondered, why don't friends care about the energy crisis, why doesn't anyone on this internet connecting millions of people dont spread this discover, they sure do like to spread pictures of naked people and comedy jokes, what about solutions for all of us. i wasnt getting anywhere, and my writings got more abusive. i was fully aware i was going thru this period of frustration, and something was telling me good- let people know how even the good hearted ones that endure for all of us have obstacles, life is a struggle. it is meant to be this way for our growth, even in pour conception our little soldier sperm must endure amongst its many brothers and find its mate:) and to continue in life with struggle- from lifting weights to make the body strong- to studying vigorously to accelerate in academics and careers- to any endeavor in life- it is to be a struggle and man doesn't want it any other way. look at the children, they say dont tell me what to do, i cant do that, yes yes i know this, i know that:) children are wonderful and the light of the world- you were a child once, then qe get confused with hormones and maybe some abuse by others and e are blind sided for many years if not right up to our graves without finding truth again, peace and stability with one another, with god of all nations and peoples beliefs as we all try to honor where our families go after death, man tries to honor god.
but my writings continued and i found myself beginning to do something i never did before, scare people. i don't like it, but there is some reality to it, talks of war and financial ruins, it is around us, it was always with us since our time upon the earth, i am sure it was far more barbaric in the old days, and i believe we get better all the time, we try.and so now here i am, talks of war and negativity and i had enough of it.
To anyone who read anything i wrote in the past in which angered you, i am sorry, my motives were to provoke you to help in this energy crisis. to anyone in general who reads these words for the first time, I love god, i love the story of the Christ and i place my soul and spirit in complete faith and trust with such a spirit, to my fellowman, i had enough of negativity, i did so to portray even the good guys get beat up, but all is well and life is good indeed to just be alive and have still have some magic left in physical abilities, as for money and materialism, i never chased it before, i never will, i know we need enough to just live a stable life, but i followed the footsteps of the Christs, all is relative, my eyes were always focused on the sick and poor, i have been blessed my whole life, thank you god for such, i have made my peace with you last year this time, this year i make my peace with mankind. i pray my deeds of science are uncovered in a positive way to help alleviate the stress on man, if not, i sure did try, it was a struggle, i wouldn't have it any other way.
god bless us, everyone
solomon azar
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